A sharp, dark and sarcastic track about craving attention, fearing real closeness,
hiding behind humor, and asking if anyone else has survived the same version of themselves.
Tell me, have you ever fell in love off one damn grin?
Built a whole relationship before she even walked in?
I don’t need a type, I just need eye contact,
A little bit of warmth and my dumb ass calls it that.
I call it “love,” nah, let’s call it what it is,
A trauma bond starter kit dressed up as a fix.
She smiles, I’m like “maybe this the one, let’s begin,”
Two weeks later I’m emotionally filing her in the bin.
Can you relate, or am I just sick in a clever way?
Catch feelings by breakfast, lose them by Saturday.
I say “I love you” smooth, yeah, the lines sound nice,
Too bad my chest stays colder than a tax man’s eyes.
And God forbid somebody shows me real affection,
Arm on my shoulder? Cool, now my skin needs protection.
Love taps me once and my nervous system glitches,
Like “Whoa, what’s this?.... Intimacy?” — man, that shit itches.
So tell me, is it confidence?
Nah.
It’s “look at me” energy
with a “please don’t look too close” disorder.
Can you relate?
Tell me, do you break what you want?
Can you relate?
Does your anger move faster than thought?
Can you relate?
Do you act like your heart’s made of stone?
Can you relate?
Or am I dying dramatic and alone?
And if you feel me, then don’t just nod to the beat,
Tell me how you fixed what still feels broken in me.
I’m not asking for pity, I’m demanding a clue,
How the hell do you heal when the damage is you?
I need praise like oxygen, yeah, I said it, what now?
If I’m not the best in the room, I get real mean somehow.
Everything I touch gotta shine, gotta win, gotta snap,
Failure feels less like a lesson, more like a public attack.
People call me driven, I call it fear with a gym plan,
A fragile little ego flexing hard like a big man.
I joke, I charm, I self-roast, dont worry, I roast you too.
Keep attention moving so nobody looks through.
Can you relate to being loved for a version you made?
A custom-built personality that deserves its own stage?
I act like what they want, yeah, I fit that mold nice,
I got masks for every room, I should charge by the size.
I’m married too, yeah, and here’s where it gets rough,
If she vanished tomorrow, would I grieve enough?
That sounds cold, right? Cool, judge me quick,
But people always leave, so I learned not to stick.
I thought kids might fix it, make me softer inside,
Make me break from the bloodline, finally cut the tie.
Instead I see my family every time that I snap,
Turns out “I’ll never be them” was a cute little act.
That’s the joke, right?
You spend your whole life swearing
you’ll never turn into what hurt you…
then hear them in your own voice
coming out at your children.
Yeah.
Real funny, but truth hurts
My anger too quick, my brain too late,
By the time logic shows up, I done set the whole place.
I can cut with a sentence, humiliate with style,
Then sit in shame alone like “Maybe I went too wild.”
Can you relate to that delayed regret?
That “I hate what I said” but can’t say it yet?
That apology stuck in your throat like glass,
So you pace in your guilt while the moment just passed?
See, I do feel bad, that’s the sick little twist,
I ain’t heartless, I’m just terrible at showing I exist.
By the time the remorse hits, the damage been done,
And I’m stuck looking stupid with my mouth half shut.
I hate that work matters more than who’s in the room,
I can build something perfect while my house starts to ruin.
I give strangers more grace than the people I claim,
Then wonder why my own home got smoke in the frame.
And can you relate to being “the strong one” in public?
But whispering serious words so nobody can judge it?
Big tough image, chest out, play the role, hold the line,
But deep down you’re just scared they might look in your mind.
So tell me, crowd is this just me being insane?
Or do some of you clap ‘cause you’re hiding the same?
Can you relate?
Tell me, do you break what you want?
Can you relate?
Does your anger move faster than thought?
Can you relate?
Do you act like your heart’s made of stone?
Can you relate?
Or am I dying dramatic and alone?
And if you feel me, then don’t just nod to the beat,
Tell me how you fixed what still feels broken in me.
I’m not asking for pity, I’m demanding a clue,
How the hell do you heal when the damage is you?