Song
Sparking Match
A song about the high of being noticed, mistaking the spark for love, and going cold when the glow fades.
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Lyrics
She walked in, whole room went sharp, Like somebody lit a match in the dark. I was posted up, acting numb, Then she looked my way and I came undone. Small smile, slow walk, eyes locked in, One little spark and it pulled me in. Started with a laugh, then a drink, then talk, Then the whole night moved when she started to walk. She made me feel like I still had life, Like dead parts in me came back that night. I got funny, smooth, I could work the room, Like I wasn’t carrying all this doom. She touched my arm, my head went loud, Now I’m floating somewhere above that crowd. In that moment, yeah, I felt brand new, Like maybe this time I could follow through. That’s how it starts, I move too fast, Call it forever, try to make it last. Soon as I feel seen, I start to believe, Maybe this one gets something out of me. She walked in and I came alive, Like I’d been dead for half my life. New eyes, new high, new kind of rush, Everything empty suddenly felt enough. But I know me when it gets quiet, When the glow fades and I can’t hide it. At first I burn, then I go cold, I love the start, then I get bored. Now we’re outside with the city lit, She’s saying soft things and I’m into it. She likes my mind, says I feel intense, Like every word got weight in it. Maybe it does in the heat of the chase, When there’s still mystery left to taste. When she’s still new and the night moves fast, And nothing yet feels built to last. Then days go by and the shine wears thin, Same sweet voice, same pull comes in. Her name lights up on my phone again, And I feel that distance start setting in. No big fight, no reason why, Just a slow fade-out that I can’t fight. Nothing she did, nothing went wrong, I just stop feeling where I felt so strong. That’s how it shifts, it creeps in slow, The spark gets weak, the numbness grows. Soon as it’s real, something in me leaves, Like I only know love in the fantasy. She walked in and I came alive, Like I’d been dead for half my life. New eyes, new high, new kind of rush, Everything empty suddenly felt enough. But I know me when it gets quiet, When the glow fades and I can’t hide it. At first I burn, then I go cold, I love the start, then I get bored. Now she’s asking, “Did I do something wrong?” And I got no answer I can put in a song. Cause I liked her laugh, liked her face, Liked how she made the darkness break. Liked being chosen, liked that need, Liked the high of her wanting me. But wanting stays easy, staying gets hard, That’s where the numbness shows its cards. I can be distant, still own the room, Be the loudest one in the building too. Make everybody think I’m open wide, While there’s locked doors on the inside. I fall in love fast, or that’s what it seems, But maybe I just love being seen. Cause the closer it gets, the less I can feel, Like my heart wakes up for what ain’t real. I’m not heartless, I just lose the light, I can hold you close, then disappear at night. I don’t mean to break what felt so true, I just don’t know what to do. When new turns normal, And silence gets loud, When the thrill burns out, And I can’t fake it now. She walked in and I came alive, Like I’d been dead for half my life. New eyes, new high, new kind of rush, Everything empty suddenly felt enough. But I know me when it gets quiet, When the glow fades and I can’t hide it. At first I burn, then I go cold, I love the start, then I get bored. She walked in and I felt reborn, Now I’m back at the same closed door. It’s never her, it’s something in me, I live for the spark, not what comes after the dream. So if I go distant, don’t call me cruel, I’m fighting old numbness I never could move. I want the love, I just lose the cord, I love the start, then I get bored. She didn’t break me. She just met me between the spark and the shutdown.